Hi and welcome to my blog.
My name is Lisa and I am a mum of 5 soon to be 6 little boys.
For years I have battled with Post Natal Depression. I have tried many ways to heal myself from this horrible illness but I haven’t succeeded. My depression is all consuming. It has taken away my self esteem, my motivation and essentially left me an empty miserable and sometimes angry shell of a person. I have been searching for something I can do to distract my mind when the depression hits hard and sadly my low self esteem and low self confidence has left me failing in the beginning then giving up completely out of frustration.
And then I found knitting.
I have a few friends who either knit or crochet and seeing the beautiful things they make with their beautiful bright yarns was a temptation I couldn’t resist. A friend of mine Danni has recently started knitting too. Seeing her determination to learn to knit was inspiring. She didn’t just quit cos it was hard like I normally would, she kept going and now she is making such beautiful things.
Danni you inspired me to not give up!
With the help of Danni and our friend Meg they have been my virtual cheerleaders cheering me on when I am frustrating and telling me I can do it… and do you know what? I DID and I CAN !!
Sure i’m still learning, I drop stitches, lose count, forget where I am in the pattern but it’s learning and now that I’ve found how therapeutic is it I am not going to give it up.
Knitting has given me my much needed outlet to vent away my frustrations. The distraction I have found in knitting is helping me to cool my mind and keep myself calm. And the sense of achievement I feel once I finish a project is INCREDIBLE.
Anyway…. please join me as I learn to knit and hopefully get better. I won’t hide my failures from you, they will eventually show me how far I have come in the future.
until then xx